“Dear Her” – Monologue

Dear Her,

I know this is kind of sudden, but I was too afraid to say this in person. I like you. I like you a lot. I’ve only known you for a year, but it feels like I have waited my entire life to find you. Everything about you is just perfect. I wish I got to talk to you more while I had the chance. And I always had the feeling you wanted to talk to me too. But I’m sure it’s only because it was comforting thinking I had a chance with you. But now I’ll never know. I may not regret it now, but I wouldn’t be surprised if I regret it in the future. To be honest, I have never regretted something in my life. Sure, I have regretted not studying for some of my tests or making terrible fashion choices. But I have never really regretted something. Like if I had the ability to go back in time and change anything, I wouldn’t. Not a single thing. So I hope you take it as a compliment knowing that I may or may not regret confessing my feelings to you in the future. 

I have also never had a girlfriend in my life. I was close maybe once or twice, but I have zero experience with dates or a significant other. I’ve held hands with a girl, cuddled, and even kissed a girl. But the only girl I kissed was because we were the leads in a play together, so it meant nothing I promise. Not that it matters to you. These things matter a lot to me though. I take pride in never having a girlfriend. My standards are high. No one has ever broken my heart or stolen a kiss from pure lips. And no crazy exes or awkward friendships, kind of. You are my exception. We had barely talked to each other. Never hugged, held hands, or even had a real conversation. The furthest we got is to follow each other, which is really just as simple as the click of a button, but it took a lot for me to press that dumb button. I’ve been nervous plenty of times talking to girls I think are cute or pretty, but not like you. You would stand right in front of me, but I didn’t dare to even look.You could call for help and I would walk on by. Pathetic, I know. And if you noticed, you’d know too. I’ve never met anyone I can imagine loving for the rest of my life. And I know I barely know you but what I imagine could be us is all I could wish for. We both enjoy quiet mornings and watching the stars at night. We suck at singing, but never fail to sing our hearts out during late night drives. It doesn’t matter how ridiculous we look because the only ones we see are each other. We both don’t have a life, but it doesn’t matter because we have each other. Everyone will be jealous of what we have. I know none of it is real. And we never happened, but thank you for making me fall in love with what could have been. 

Sincerely,

Me

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